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Published June 20, 2013, 11:30 PM

Holt: Learning to enjoy life regardless of size

A couple weeks ago, I stood proudly next to my best friend holding a white and yellow bouquet while she married her fiancé. Did I go down a dress size or two like I’d hoped? No. In fact, I went up a size and a half. Did it matter? In the big scheme of things, nope.

By: Meredith Holt, INFORUM

A couple weeks ago, I stood proudly next to my best friend holding a white and yellow bouquet while she married her fiancé.

Did I go down a dress size or two like I’d hoped? No. In fact, I went up a size and a half. Did it matter? In the big scheme of things, nope.

What did matter was that I made sure the bride had what she needed, kept things running smoothly and had fun. Which I did.

I applied last-minute makeup, helped organize family photos, gave a toast and ended the night with a sweet bride/maid-of-honor dance to Journey’s “Don’t Stop Believin’. ”

I may have been wearing a size I wish I’d left behind for good, but I was happy, and I looked happy.

Time and time again, I’ve heard people say, “When I lose X pounds, I’ll do X, Y or Z.” I’ve said it myself on multiple occasions.

Excess weight does make certain activities, like riding a roller coaster, going down a water slide or running after your kids difficult, if not impossible.

I’m afraid of heights, I don’t like swimming, and I don’t have kids, but there are plenty of life events I wish I were a little less hefty for.

On my 30th birthday May 24, my boyfriend surprised me with a flash mob wedding proposal in downtown Fargo’s Island Park.

My movements and reactions were followed by half a dozen camera lenses. We were interviewed by WDAY-TV.

I cringed when I saw my fat rolls captured on film and video, but I quickly gave myself a mental kick and reminded myself of what’s important.

My closest friends – and some strangers! – contributed their time and talent to make this important life event extra-special for us.

We plan to show proposal footage at our reception, and I’ll be proud of it, chub and all.

My upcoming wedding gives me motivation to get back on the wagon, but I’ll try not to beat myself up about my progress so much that I can’t enjoy the process.

Angela Skaff told me in a recent interview, “This time, it’s about enjoying the journey and not saying, ‘My life will start when I am X number of pounds.’ ”

The quiet but brave 29-year-old West Fargo woman I featured lost 250 pounds and regained it. Now she’s doing it again.

She told me, “My life is now, and there will be ups and downs, but I am learning to live day by day.”

I’ve been trying to follow her example and learn to enjoy life despite my weight struggle.

Realizing that I might miss out on what life has to offer if I’m too caught up in my weight has helped me accept myself at any size.

My fiancé obviously loves me for who I am, so why can’t I?


Forum reporter Meredith Holt lost over 100 pounds between 2010 and 2012. She will share stories of her weight-loss journey in her column, which runs the first and third Friday of each month in SheSays. Readers can reach her at (701) 241-5590.

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