My dad once told me that he didn't believe that there was just one person for everyone. I was sitting shotgun in the pickup as he drove us somewhere. He likely asked me about my boyfriend, and I think I responded with a sort of fed up answer.
I was in that transition from teenager to adult, heading off to college and thinking I might be in love. And I was wondering if I should break it off, because that's what most people do. And at that age, what most people do sort of means something.
"Think about this," he said. "What would it be like for you if you couldn't talk to him tomorrow?"
From there he explained his theory on love and how he believed it was more about timing and choices and kindness than it was about destiny. And it wasn't romantic really, but hearing that there were more people out there I could love, or who could love me, helped take the pressure off, even if the teenage poet in me didn't appreciate the practicality of it at the time.
Anyway, it turns out that particular relationship did work for me. My husband and I became one of those couples who found each other as teenagers and hung on tight, not because of big romantic gestures or a dramatic series of events, but because, I think, neither one of us could imagine not being able to talk to each other every day. And although it'd be more passionate to say we were destined to be together, the truth is, in the end, it was a choice.
Last month, I asked a group of preschoolers to define love. I wanted a few cute quotes in the name of Valentine's Day for the parenting magazine I edit. I don't know what I expected, but it got me wondering how I would respond if someone pulled me away from my Lego tower and asked me.
One little boy summed it up perfectly when he told me, confidently, that he shows his mom he loves her by "cooking her turkey."
I smiled as I wrote down his answer, thinking how refreshing it is to hear such an uncomplicated take on what we grown-ups come to muddy up along the way.
Then I thought of my mom sitting by my dad's bedside day after day after day while he was in the ICU and unable to speak, not knowing if she would get to talk to him tomorrow, the choice no longer hers to own.
There will be a time when my girls will need me to talk to them about head and heart, and I hope I'll be able to remember what it felt like that day in the pickup, to be a teenager on the edge of a wide open life, reminded that love looks less like Prince Charming and more like turkey dinner turned into turkey sandwiches turned into a lifetime of conversation with the someone you can't bear to lose.