Medina, N.D.- Twenty-five years later, Darrell Graf is still held prisoner by 30 seconds of gunfire and the aftermath that followed.
Graf didn't fire a shot, but he was there just the same.
The former Medina police chief was waiting with medical personnel a few hundred feet from the 1983 gun battle involving tax protester Gordon Kahl and U.S. marshals trying to arrest him on a warrant for violating his probation.
U.S. Marshal Kenneth Muir and Deputy Marshal Bob Cheshire were killed during the shooting that followed a nine-minute standoff just north of Medina. A piece of asphalt from a ricocheting bullet struck Deputy Marshal James Hopson, causing brain damage. Kahl's son, Yorie, and former Medina police officer Steve Schnabel suffered bullet wounds. Stutsman County Deputy Bradley Kapp's trigger finger was blown off in the firefight.
Deputy Marshal Carl Wigglesworth was uninjured after finding himself in water up to his knees into a slough when chasing after Scott Faul, a Kahl supporter and one of the shooters.
"It was like a tornado com-ing and I couldn't do anything about it," Graff said.
Kahl, 63, stole a police car and fled the scene, eluding capture for four months be-fore being killed in a shootout at an Arkansas farmhouse where he was hiding.
Memories from the shootout and the reaction and treat-ment Graf says he received afterwards have destroyed his life. Graf and Schnabel were fired soon after the incident; however, the mayor at the time said the occurrences were unrelated.
Graf has been accused of both telling the marshals Kahl was in town and then turning around and tipping Kahl off about the roadblock. Graf denies both allegations.
Such accusations have left a mark on Graf, Schnabel said.
"Even though I got shot in the deal it wasn't as trauma-tizing for me as it was for Darrell," Schnabel said. "His life was basically ruined over this thing."
In an effort to get out his story, the 52-year-old Graf, who no longer works in law enforcement, wrote a book with Schnabel, who was shot in the leg during the incident.
"That was our therapy," Schnabel said.
The book, entitled, "It's All About Power," is dedicated to victims of post traumatic stress disorder and includes Graf's own descriptions of his struggle since the shootout.
Even after the book, it's still personal for Graf.
He now lives in Bismarck, where he is involved in fire-fighter training. He still hunts and owns property in Medina, where it's not uncommon to see him waiving to other locals as he drives through town.
For Schnabel, 47, the effects of the shootout have gotten easier over the years, but "it's always there," he said.
"I've kind of tried to com-partmentalize it and put it away," he said. "It will pop up once in awhile and you just deal with it when it does."
Schnabel spent the summer following the shootings work-ing on a farm, but then moved to Fargo, where he now lives, working at a local manufac-turing plant.
Finding a job after the shootings proved difficult at first, but after a while Schna-bel decided to see if not listing his work in Medina on the application would make a difference.
Just like that, he "got hired in a minute," Schnabel said.
"I kind of put two and two together," he added.
With each anniversary, feel-ings of hopelessness, empti-ness and a reminder of what Graf calls an "unnecessary tragedy" come flooding in, he said.
As the calendar approaches Feb. 13, requests for informa-tion or comment about the shootout often spring up, Schnabel said.
"On one hand you just want it all to go away but on the other hand .... we want to tell people about it," Schnabel said. "We don't mind talking to people who want to know what happened."
But finding people to talk about what happened can sometimes be difficult.
"Nobody talks about it here anymore," Graf said, refer-ring to Medina.
The stigma over what hap-pened in Medina remains in the small town and impacts others around the state, espe-cially the town's former resi-dents.
Jerry Fisher, who was the Medina school superintendent in 1983, says Kahl's name comes up immediately after he mentions he worked in Medina for 18 years.
His response often includes a reminder that Kahl didn't live in Medina, but in Heaton, about 50 miles away.
"Outside people are more interested I think then the people in Medina," Fisher said. "The people in Medina just want to forget it."
But forgetting what some refer to as North Dakota's most notorious crime isn't that easy.
Former Forum reporter James Corcoran, who was nominated for a Pulitzer Prize for his coverage of the shoot-out and the federal trial that followed, said he still gets emails every now and then about the Kahl incident, espe-cially when similar scenarios arise.
Corcoran, who works as communications department chairman at Simmons College in Boston, wrote a definitive account of the shootout in 1990 with the book, "Bitter Harvest: Gordon Kahl and the Posse Comitatus - Murder in the Heartland."
U.S. Attorney Drew Wrig-ley, North Dakota's chief federal prosecutor, said he remembers everyone in the area being riveted by the shootout and the events that followed.
But something else that sticks out in his mind are the photos of Cheshire and Muir still hanging in the foyer of the U.S. Marshal Service Office in Fargo.
The photos are a reminder of the losses suffered 25 years ago today that will never be forgotten, Wrigley said.
"It will never fade," he said.
- Feb. 13, 1983: Shootout in Medina between tax protester Gordon Kahl and U.S. marshals trying to arrest him on a warrant for violating his probation leaves U.S. Marshal Kenneth Muir and Deputy Marshal Bob Cheshire dead and others on scene injured. Kahl flees in a stolen police car.
- March 11, 1983: A grand jury indicts Gordon Kahl, his son, Yorie Von, and Scott Faul with murder for the deaths of Muir and Cheshire. The grand jury also indicts Kahl's wife, Joan, Vernon A. Wegner and David Broer on lesser charges.
- May 12, 1983: Federal trial begins in Fargo for Scott Faul, Yorie Von Kahl, Joan Kahl and David Broer. Before the case went to trial, Wegner pleaded guilty to interfering with law enforcement in exchange for two years of probation and testimony favorable to the government.
- May 28, 1983: A jury convicts Scott Faul and Yorie Von Kahl of two charges of second-degree murder, charges of assault with a dangerous weapon and conspiracy to help Gordon Kahl escape. Both are serving life sentences. Joan Kahl is acquitted of two lesser charges she faced. David Broer is convicted of harboring Kahl and on a conspiracy charge, but acquitted on seven other charges.
- June 3, 1983: Authorities, responding on a tip, engage in a shootout at a farmhouse in Smithville, Ark., where Kahl is hiding. Kahl and Lawrence County Sheriff Gene Matthews are both killed.
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